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| Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't updated this thing in months!! Let me update you!
So summer began a couple of months ago. It started out shakey with my grandmother's death and everything. It's been hard on all of us, especially on my grandfather. They spent everyday together and love each other so much. Anyways...
This past week my boyfriend visited me it was really amazing. I miss how random we are. Dancing randomly, either while walking and holding hands or hugging. Singing. Kissing. Making funny faces... just everything. There was never a horrible or dull moment. I think every other day I gave him a present I either made or bought him while we were apart. It was wonderful. I love him.
La laa let's see other than that, I've been sketching A LOT... cartoons, clothing, graffitti and etc. It really helps me and will help my art portfolio.
I don't think i'll be able to take classes for fall semester which is really okay with me. I need to work on getting everything ready for my portfolio and apply also! well kind of busy.
update more in a bit.
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| so here i am, back on xanga! i really haven't had the time or made the time to get on here and write an actual weblog! it's not like people really read this... so yeah. :p
two more weeks until the semester ends and i have about four papers due overall from now until my last final. i'm getting pretty decent grades, but i really don't feel my motivation to go forth with it after this. i really just want to get a job, save up some more money, build up my portfolio and apply to FIT. "then just do it!" hah! it may seem that simple, but so many things are stopping me. here's my thought process:
just do it! yeah nothing can stop you!
ugh, but there's so many family problems and sometimes no one's there to take care of my grandma. i'll just put it off for a bit.
wait, there's so much family around that can do that stuff and you really have to pursue your future. you'll never get to where you really want to be unless you just risk it!
i know, but i'm scared.
stfu.
...and then blah blah blah. i'd continue, but you get the picture!
since we/i can't really pay for summer courses im really going to try to build up my portfolio, get a job and pursuade my parents (plus myself) that this is what i really want and all i want is their support. my dad is always like, "...just as long as you finish college!" obviously i want to get a college degree either way, but why go through something you dread everyday? i know what i want and i'm going to do whatever it takes to get there. i want to go to FIT, major in fashion design, be successful and especially... HAPPY. i want to have that feeling of i love my life and i wouldn't trade it for anything in this world. whether i don't make it in the fashion industry, kind of make it, or make it... i want to know that i experienced it. all in all, i just want to be really happy with all the choices i make in life.
well, i'm going to stop for now. bye!
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| Eccentric:
(n.) One that deviates markedly from an established norm, especially a person of odd or unconventional behavior.
(adj.) Departing from a recognized, conventional, or established norm or pattern.
Culture:
1. (n.) The totality of socially transmitted behavior patterns, arts, beliefs, institutions, and all other products of human work and thought.
2. (n.) A high degree of taste and refinement formed by aesthetic and intellectual training.
These past few years, I've changed a lot. I'm more of my own person than a follower. If I'm interested in something, i'll pursue it. Instead of copying something, I'll try my best to make it my own and "better". I reach for the best and not the mediocre. Challenges always make my life better. I make myself happy before anyone else (not selfish at all). So... overall I'm happy with everything that's going on in my life.
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| I asked myself, why... why make a blog and tell the world about your unstable, chaotic, spontaneous, but at the same time, controlled and sheltered lifestyle..? And I answered with, I have no answer. :) So here I am.
...expect more for next time. :p
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